Wednesday, February 13, 2013

What Just Happened?

What the hell just happened???? At night D and I sit in bed and he watches TV and I'm on the computer, either reading a book or doing research on this lifestyle that we are headed for.

Last night was no different. We talked a little about our journey and what might be up ahead, but nothing too deep or worth mentioning. I get up pretty early...4:30am so I got ready for bed. D stood up and said "come here". I said it's past my bedtime and I need to get to bed. He said "come here" in a more stern voice along with this look....a new look! A look that I don't ever remember seeing!

Well, since we are supposed to be venturing into this D/s lifestyle I thought ok lets see how this goes! I crawl across the bed and he drops his pants and motions for me to start sucking. I want to be a sub I did the sub thing and did as I was told! I'm not real sure what happened or how it happened but OMG it was freaking HOT!!!! I sucked him for a while and he just kept telling me what a good girl I was. I never knew how much I loved to hear that! And then he started fingering me while I sucked him. He continued this for a little while (very little while) and then all of a sudden he pulled away from me. I thought wait a minute, we're not done are we? Then he tells me to get doggy style (my favorite!!!) and then he takes me!!

WHOA....what is happening??? Who is this guy fucking me??? This is soooooo HOT I can't even begin to tell you! (yea yea ok ok ....I know I'm not the first to experience this, but damn I'm glad I got to)

He fucks me until he cums. Then he lays down with me, hugs me and kisses me and then LEAVES THE ROOM!!!!!!!! WOW! Wait.....Seriously?  That's it?? Your leaving?? What about me???

I'm used to getting my way and used to being taken care of, always!!! (We have an amazing sex life already but I have a feeling it's about to be kicked up a notch or two or three!!!!) Now, here he is "taking me" and getting what he wants and leaving me wet and wanting more. I'm still not sure what's going first I was kinda hurt and even a little pissed. But it only lasted all of about 30 seconds!

Still confused, I realized that I was sooooooo thrilled and pleased that I just pleased HIM! That was totally for HIM!!!!! And in some strange way I was OK with it. Better than ok.....I was sooooo freakin happy!!! OK, what is going on? This is strange! Don't get me wrong, we've had sex before and I haven't "finished" but for some reason this was different. I'm sure those of you that are past this stage can totally understand where I'm coming from.....but it's all so new to me and I didn't realize how excited/satisfied/happy I would be pleasing him!

This morning I went to work and that's all I could think about.I had butterflies in my stomach and I spent all day wet!!!! I text him and thanked him for last night. I told him how HOT it was and how much I liked it. I was totally shocked at his answer......
I thought you would feel that way cuz your use to that (getting your way). I did if for a see how you would react and I felt I needed to start somewhere. Don't worry you'll  be rewarded!!!

WHOA....WHAT???????? Is D doing his homework? Is he really trying this D/s relationship and taking it seriously?? I think so! And let me just tell you that this sub (in training) couldn't be more happy! I am still confused (and wet!!) at the way I felt/feel but it's a good feeling! I'm just a little surprised at how everything happened and how I felt afterward. Who knew I would be soooooo happy and elated pleasing him. Is this an AHA moment for both of us???

Subrina <3


  1. I am a little late to following your blog but I just wanted to say that this post is FANTASTIC! Going through some of the same feelings over here! Glad I found you!

    1. Hi SW!

      Thank you for commenting! I'm glad you found me and I hope that my post will help you in some way. This journey is crazy, scary, exciting and anything else you can think of! But I think it is soooo worth it. Welcome and I look forward to "getting to know you"!!!

      Subrina <3