Patience.....that's a hard one! That's exactly how I feel....not in control. I'm an only child, the oldest grandchild by 4 years....I am used to getting what I want when I want it. Dominic has kept that going in our relationship as well. Then I get this crazy hair-brain idea that I want to be in a D/s or TTWD relationship. I tell D and he's all for it....."Sure babe, let's do it"
So what's the problem? Why is this not happening? Yea Yea I know.....patience! I need to let him do this at his pace. Why is patience so hard?? Why is waiting so hard???
That was really hard to read, the reality of it! But I know he is willing and he wants to try so I'm not giving up! I know this will happen down the road and I am going to wait, and wait, and wait until he's ready! (as if I had any other choice....I am on his time)
OK I need to read this one over and over and over again! (I tend to be a smartass at times). I think I have a good attitude, maybe you should ask D. We haven't been fighting but we also haven't been talking, well at least not about this. I guess right now life is getting in the way and we need to let everything settle down a little bit. A lot of new things are happening in our lives and I guess his focus is on that. That's ok, I'm glad that he's focused on that!
This is how I really feel!!!! LOL Gawd I hate waiting. I guess if this "journey" teaches me anything it will definately be patience! I just hope that the grass is greener on the other side!
Someone told me that their beginning of the journey was long and they had to be patient and wait for Him to take the lead. In the meantime she worked on herself and how to be submissive. I didn't even think of that....all I keep focusing on his Him and what he needs to do, huh like I"m so perfect ( :/ *blushes*) I guess I need to start working on me and figuring out my role in this relationship.
Anyone have any ideas for me? Where do I begin? How do I become more submissive? Even if he's not playing the "dominant" role yet? Well, I'm off to read some of your blogs and see if I can get some answers. Thank you and I love that I can count on your blog and your journey to help in mine. Blogland rocks!