What The Hell?!

I'm not sure what I'm doing. I'm not a writer and don't write well. I write like I talk. I was inspried by another blog that I found and thought what the hell....why not.

As embarrassed as I am to admit this, after reading Fifty Shades I became fascinated with the whole D/s relationship. I have always tried to get my husband to be more of the Head of Household and make more of the decisions and I would just follow his lead. But it didn't really work out like that. Now, having read these book, (and btw I LOVED them!!!!) I am even more interested in wanting to live this lifestyle.

I have no idea what I'm doing or anything about this lifestyle. I have done some research on the internet (I know I know....that is a horrible place to start) and have found some pretty interesting info. I don't know anyone who is in the lifestyle, but man do I wish I did. I have soooooooo many questions and don't exactly know where to turn.

I thought I would start this blog to see how our journey goes into this new and exciting (I think) time for us. Just so you know, this is ALL my idea. I have hinted around to him for a while but decided I needed to do more. He wasn't exactly taking the hints I was giving him, although maybe I just wasn't giving very good hints!! I guess that could be possible! Anyway, I have sent him some links to a blog that I absoutely loved. He has started reading it but I haven't really heard anything from him.
I am scared, nervous, anxious, excited, and a little worried about his reaction. He is pretty passive in our relationship. I usually make all the decisions (or together we will) and he pretty much lets me do whatever I want.

Unfortunately I think we established very early in our relationship that I pretty much wore the pants in our family. Well I don't know if I'm going through a mid life crisis or if Fifty Shades really brought out the Sub in me that has always been there. Either way, this is our journey!