Saturday, October 26, 2013

My Threesome Weekend Final

"Get your clothes off"

UGH I'm really not feeling it right now. I'm still mad and hurt and maybe a little embarrassed.

"I said get your clothes off"

Even though we don't spank (yet) or punish for behavior, he doesn't seem in the mood to test. He is still kind of mad at me and probably a little disappointed. So I do what he says.

I lay on the bed, again completely naked. He tells me to lay on my stomach and he heads for the "tool box". I feel we are struggling a little bit to make that connection but it seems like we are both fighting to get there.

He comes back over to the bed and rubs my ass and back. His touch is so soft. I feel him between my legs and my body is betraying me. I'm not feeling the moment. I'm mad. I'm hurt. I'm embarrassed. But my body is feeling everything. His hands are like silk on my skin. His hands fit perfect on me.

My mind has finally caught up to my body. He starts smacking my ass. Not real hard, maybe you could call them love taps. As he continues smacking my ass his hands land a little harder each time. Right cheek, left check, upper legs.....over and over.

And then he slides his finger in me. He fingers with a vengeance, like he is trying to crawl inside of me. I'm not sure why but instead of using the toys he went to go get he put his cock in me. I like the toys but I love the feeling of him.

This time as a little different. It was quick and kind of rough. He just took what he wanted and we we're done. He cuddled with me and we both fell asleep. I'm not sure if we we're both that tired or just from the argument, the amazing sex and all of the emotions that came with it.

The next day I had my surprised planned for him. I decided to take him to get a full body massage. I was a little nervous at how he would react so I told him about it before we went. He was all for it but said he would rather spend our money on something else. Ok that was fine with me. We really didn't need to go all the way to San Diego for a massage! I just wanted to spend time with him...I didn't care what we did or where we went.

So we went to Old Town and walked around, looked at the shops and had lunch. We had a really great conversation at lunch. We both really opened up about this lifestyle, what we both want out of it and where we are headed. He said that he is getting more comfortable in his role but still has a lot to learn. I agreed and felt the same way about myself.

The rest of the weekend was great. We just hung out with each other and just went where the day took us. We had no rhyme or reason for things we did or where we went. We we're just being with each other. I can't tell you how great it felt to just be with him. If you don't get away with your Sir/Master/HOH/HusDom.....you should! You should really make an effort to spend a couple of days just being with each other.

I realized that on Friday Mr. D was in full blown HOH mode. He was in control, demanding, commanding and hot as hell. The next few days not so much. He had his moments but nothing like Friday. Is this normal? Is it common for the HOH to switch? I know he's still learning his role but man do I wish Mr. D would stick around more!! HAHA He is smoking HOT!!

It is kind of strange how you spend every day with that person, you live with them, you share your lives with them, but spending a couple of days away from everyone and life.....it truly is amazing. I don't understand how I can keep falling in love with him more and more. I always feel like I already love him as much as I can.....and then something happens and I fall more in love with him.

Dammit!!! Why didn't we discover this lifestyle earlier in our relationship?? Oh well, we have found it now and I don't want to ever go back to the way we were.


Thank you Mr. D for an amazing weekend. I loved spending time with you and just being with you. You are absolutely the perfect person for me and I am so glad that you chose me to share your life with. I love you more and more every day.


Subrina <3

10 comments:

  1. Could Friday have been because you two went without sex for a week or so? That tension definitely can bring out more passion, lust, and emotions.

    I'm so glad you let go, and you both had a great time together.

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    1. Your probably right HS....the tension between us was almost tangible. And it did bring out a whole mess of emotions!

      Thank you. Thank you for the advice!

      Subrina <3

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  2. Subrina,
    You asked "Is this normal? Is it common for the HOH to switch?" I don't believe, personally, that be an HOH or submissive is necessarily WHO you are, but more the choices you make in the context of your marriage. It's very easy for me (and many men I think) to be kind of lazy or let things slide, or just let the woman control things or manage them. For me, it takes a conscious decision to do otherwise. Over time, I believe this comes more naturally, because it is natural for the husband to lead his wife. Just my opinion, fallible as it is.
    Let him do his thing. If he's on board with the lifestyle, he'll grow into more piece by piece. Have fun!

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    1. Hi Foothills!

      Thanks for stopping by and commenting. I love hearing from the HOH's. You have a different perspective than I do.

      I think you hit the nail on the head. It is a lot of work, for both Doms and subs, to make conscious choices. Thank you for the advice, I will let him "do his thing"!

      Subrina <3

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  3. I think foothills is right. I see Rog do it, he will get lazy and let things slide. If I Become more submissive and make an effort not to lead or make the choices he does step it up. I'm glad you had a great weekend.
    Kim

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    1. Hi Kim!

      Yea, I have noticed that too. When I am in "sub mode" he does step up and be more HOH'y! But for whatever reason I just figured he would be HOH all the time and I would just follow his lead. I guess I need to start pulling my own weight and being more submissive.

      Ya know, it really pisses me off when you guys are right!!!!! hahaha

      Subrina <3

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  4. HI Subrina,

    I'm so glad you had such a wonderful weekend together. I like what Foothills said. I think there is a definite ebb and flow with ttwd and that applies to both HoH and TiH. At times we are more Dominant/submissive than others.

    Hugs,
    Roz

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    1. Hi Roz!

      I am happy that I'm not alone in this and not the only one that this happens to. When he is HOH....OMG it's hot as hell and soooo easy to be submissive. When he's not, well that's when I really need to dig deep and find that sub in me!

      Subrina <3

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  5. I'm just so happy for the both of you!

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