What Was I Thinking?

As you know (if you read my blog), Mr. D and I are going away next weekend. In 19 years, we have never gone away for the weekend, just the two of us. I am beyond thrilled and can't wait to get my hands on him, err um I mean spend some time with him! Aunt Flo will be gone by then and we will definitely be ready. It's been over a week already (she always overstays her UNwelcome!)

I think I also said that we don't really get to do all of things we would like to in the bedroom. With a house full of people and thin walls, it just feels like neither one of us can really be who or what we want to. Next weekend will be different....game on!

I called Mr. D from work the other day and we were talking about our trip. Things we want to do, how excited both of us are, a little about my surprise and things we might want to try! I don't know what came over me but....

         I had an idea!

I told Mr. D that I had been thinking....

"What if we waited until next weekend on our trip to have sex?"

"What do you mean.....not have it at all until then?"

"Yea"

silence

"Mr. D?"

silence

"OK....yeah, let's do this!"


It's been about 5 days since I brought it up and now and I'm having second thoughts.

What the hell was I thinking? It's already been over a week and now I'm going to have to wait another week? Seriously, what is wrong with me? Who, in their right mind, would come up with such a stupid idea? I mean really. And why would he agree to this nonsense?

Originally my thought behind it was this will not only teach us patience, self control and discipline but man when we do have it, it's going to be A-FREAKIN-MAZING! It will be 2 weeks with no sex, in a hotel room, no interruptions and with him....OH HELLYEAH!

Well, now I am beyond wanting him. I find myself craving his touch, his closeness. I want to be near him and talk to him. When we are walking I will brush my hand to his hoping that he grabs my hand to hold it, just to have him touching me. I want to cuddle with him and lay on his chest. I catch myself just staring at him sometimes. UGH I don't know if I can do this for the next week.

We both have had some weak moments and have almost given in. At times we will tease each other and try to talk the other one into giving in. For whatever reason, when one is being weak the other one stays strong and wont give in. It's amazing how we work!


So for now I am going to try and.....

I'm going to stand my ground and not give in (I hope!) I'm not going to ask him for it or tease him about it. I'm just hoping that he stays strong too. I think I will be so disappointed if he gives in. But only time will tell.

Now I have sooooo much more to be excited about. Jason Aldean concert, weekend away with Mr. D and now sex. Come on Friday!!!

Subrina <3