This happens every day, without fail. Today was no exception!
Today when he called I was in the bathroom!! *blushing* When mother nature calls you have to answer!!!!!
When he calls you need to answer, right? Being the good little sub that I am, that's exactly what I did!
He asked what I was doing and I was honest with him.....I told him I was in the bathroom. We talked for a few minutes, he asked me to get some things done today, but the connection was horrible. I couldn't move to a different spot, after all I was a little busy. As the conversation went on he got more and more frustrated, as did I. We both kept saying "can you hear me? can you hear me now?"
On a side note.......I really hate that commercial! OK where was I................
And then it happened.
"Then take your lazy ass outside"
Huh? What? Did he really just say that? He knows I'm in the bathroom. Is that what he really thinks?
I didn't say anything to him. I kept listening to what he was saying and then we said goodbye. As soon as I hung up the tears started to fall. I couldn't help it, I couldn't stop them. It wasn't a heavy cry or a sobbing cry. Just tears falling down my face.
I was a little shocked! Not necessarily at what he said, but how I was reacting. Why did this hurt my feelings so much? Why am I crying? I'm sure he's said this in the past. I'm sure he's said things that would hurt my feelings before. So why this time? Why are there tears falling? I know he didn't say it to intentionally hurt my feelings, he probably doesn't even know that it hurt my feelings.
After thinking about it for a while and trying to process what just happened I have come to the conclusion it's TTWD fault!
I'm embarrassed to say that before TTWD we really had no filter when we would speak to each other. We would call each other names and were just disrespectful. We would talk to each other anyway we wanted, say whatever came to mind and not
Enter TTWD and things have definitely changed. Although we haven't been doing this for very long, we are more connected, we are more in tune with each other, we definitely have more respect for each other. We are more caring and loving towards each other and most importantly we communicate so much better than before.
So after writing and processing what happened, I think I know exactly why it hurt my feelings. We don't speak to each other like that anymore. I know I have to tell him that it hurt my feelings and I will. If you read my blog you will know that one of my rules is to text him everyday at 11:30.....guess what the topic is going to be??? (He also reads my blog!!)
*While I was writing this post, he called me back and asked if I could hear him. I told him that I could and he said good. He then went on to tell me when he called me the first time he was on the hands free in the car and that's probably why he couldn't hear me!!!!! OMG are you kidding me????? So maybe it was YOU and not me??? UGH!!!!
I sent him the 11:30 text, I tried to explain to him what I was feeling and how he hurt my feelings but I just couldn't. So I directed him here! He called me at his second lunch, like he always does, and said how sorry he was, he didn't mean to hurt my feelings and didn't even realize he said that. He apologized and apologized....I told him it was ok but I was glad that he knew it hurt me. So all is right in the world again! Oh and what's the best part about fighting...............
MAKE UP SEX!!!!!!!! YAY