UH OH Results

If you read the post before this you know that I missed my 11:30 text. Mr. D did not miss that I missed it. He called me on his lunch and let me know he was fully aware of the missed text.

Oh man.....I'm in trouble!

I was really conflicted on how I felt about it.

On one hand I was so excited that he noticed and was calling me out on it. He was being the HOH that I have been asking for. He was sticking to his guns. He was acting like he was going to follow through with this. He seemed like he had full intentions on spanking me.

On the other hand I was hoping that he would forget. OK actually my ass was hoping he would forget and just give in to me. If he was serious and had intentions of following through with this, that meant I was getting spanked.

I was so torn about trying to get out of this. I so wanted to put on my pouty face, bat my eyes at him, and raise up my halo. I knew I could talk him out of this and would get my way. I got this! But then this voice in my head was screaming shut up! You wanted this, you asked for this......own up to it and take what you got coming to you.

Mr. D came home and I was asleep.......remember my nap!! He let me sleep and went about doing what he does. He was cooking dinner when I finally woke up. I went to the kitchen to say hi and see if he needed help. We finished cooking and then ate dinner. Neither one of us brought up the elephant in the room.

Dinner was over and I went back to our bedroom. I was still tired from my nap and laid down on the bed. I grabbed my phone and was reading my emails. When he comes in the door I was reading the comments from some of you on my UH OH post. I was laughing out loud (thank you Misty and HS!!) and Mr. D comes in the room and grins at me. He sits down on the bed. I immediately go to him and want to lay with him, on his chest.

He's not buying it!

"Are you ready?"

I don't know why, but I felt this was the time to show him one of the comments that said
"Honestly, Mr. D, lay into her ass! She needs it. Don't let her fool you or talk you out of it."

He didn't read beyond those words. He smiled and handed me my phone back. Got up off the bed and asked again if I was ready.

Do I play stupid? Do I try and talk my way out of this? Can I try and be cute?

"You now you missed your text today and you know what that means?"

*as cute as I can be* "I love you baby!"

*chuckling* "I love you too. Now come over here and kneel over the bed"

"But baby I love you" *he knows exactly what I'm doing*

"Subrina....get over here now"

The whole time this is going on I am giggling and he is really trying to hide his smile. We are both kind of laughing but trying to get through it. It is still very awkward for both of us. But he seems to be sticking to it.

I him and hah about it, telling him I don't want to do this.

"Subrina....now!" and he points to the floor by the bed

I kind of roll around the bed and finally get on the floor.

He says he's going to give me 2 spankings because I missed my text today. I was shaking my head and telling him no, I didn't want to do this.

Two? That's it? WOW I'm getting off easy....SWEET!

He put his hand on my back and then...............

WHACK!

WHACK!

I just kind of sat there for a few seconds and then crawled up the bed. He laid down next to me and I laid on his chest. He held me and asked if I was ok.

I was ok.

I was more than ok.

I know I said this the last time but it still baffles me. I feel completely at peace. I feel so much closer to him. I feel so calm and so.....um.....just......peaceful. I don't know how to explain it.

I have read from some of you that when you get a spanking it's like a reset. I never understood what it meant. I could never wrap my brain around it.

Until now!

I get it! I understand it! I get bratty, disrespectful, trying to do things my own way, trying to top from the bottom. And then he steps up and takes care of things, of me.

Now I have been "reset" and I can't tell you how strange, peaceful, and calm I feel. Not to mention how much closer or more connected I feel to him. After it happened, I just laid in his arms, listening to him talk. Not really understanding what he was saying, but just listening to him. I felt like I was floating. I have this tingling feeling all over. I felt like I was drunk!

Can TTWD really be this good? Is it possible to keep getting better? Is it possible to keep feeling closer to him? Just when I think he's not stepping up or being what I want him to be.....he totally throws me a curve ball. I guess if I just learn some patience, let him lead and do this on his time......I will always have this feeling. I may not be getting what I want when I want it......but I am getting what I need when I need it!

Subrina <3

UH OH

I know most of you are aware of my texting rule. I am supposed to text Mr. D everyday (mon-thur) at 11:30. I have my alarm set for this so I don't forget. Sometimes I get into a jam with this rule because I drive for a living. At this time of the day I am always driving so it can be challenging.

Today Mr. D had to work but I didn't, well I didn't have to drive. I did go into work for a few hours but I wasn't driving. I was in the office talking to the HR manager when my 11:30 alarm went off. I hit the red X on my phone and went on about my conversation.

I will text him as soon as she stops talking! I don't want to be rude and text while she is talking

We finish our conversation and I go on about my business. I finish up what I was doing and head home. I can't wait to get home and take a nap, I am sooooo tired. I don't know why but I am. I get home and see that it's almost 1:00....Mr. D will be calling me pretty soon....so my nap will have to wait!

My phone rings at 1:00.

"Hey baby, watcha doin?"

"Nothing, just got home from work and going to take a nap"

"OH OK, go ahead and take a nap, we'll talk when I get home."

hhhhmmmm we'll talk when he gets home? Why? What's wrong with him? Why is he cutting the call short? He never does that. And what's with the tone in his voice?

"Baby what's wrong.....is everything ok?"

"Yea it's fine.....We'll talk when I get home"

Not I'll talk to you when I get home.....WE'LL talk when I get home. There's a difference!

"Are you sure everything is ok?'

"Check your text messages at 11:30, what do you see?"

"We'll talk when I get home! Bye, I love you"

"OOPSIE" *giggles*

"But today is a holiday baby. I didn't have to work. I thought it was only regular days?"

"It's Mon - Thur, you know that. We'll talk when I get home"


Let's see what happens when he gets home. Here I have been complaining that I want him to stick to his guns and do what he says he's going to do. hhhmmmmmm Not so much! Now I'm kinda hopin he forgets or doesn't follow through, well my ass is hopin!

Go ahead and say it.....go on. I know, you're right!

Watch what you wish for cuz you just might get it!

Oh man....how could I be so stupid? UGH!


Subrina <3

Givin It Up

Your probably here looking for a hot sex post with me, Mr. D and my new toy.....the wand! Well, I'm sorry to disappoint you. This post has almost no sex in it, well no detailed description of any sex.

So if you're still with me......grab a drink and have a seat.....let's have some girl talk!

The weekend that Mr. D and I went away was amazing. Not only did we have great mind blowing sex (that's about all the sex talk you're gonna get in this one!!) but we had even better conversation.
On Saturday when we went to lunch we had a pretty deep conversation.

I realized that Mr. D and I have completely reversed roles. If I remember correctly it happened about 2 years ago. Not exactly sure why it happened. I guess I have kind of noticed it, but this past weekend the light bulb went off. It totally took me to a whole new place.

 

Let me rewind a little............

The past 18 years I have ALWAYS put the kids first. Anytime we went anywhere I would want to take the boys with us. If we ever went anywhere without them I would complain the whole time...."what about the boys?, I wish the boys were here" and so on. I would feel guilty if we ate out and they weren't with us. I always felt guilty when we did things without them. Mr. D would always tell me to not worry about it, enjoy myself. I never could let go. I always had them on my mind.

My boys are very active playing sports. I would NEVER NEVER EVER miss a game or practice. When my oldest went to college we would go to inner squad games and all home games. He plays adult softball and we never missed a game. My middle one plays the drums in his high school band. Band wasn't our thing, but we never miss a performance....even went to some practices. Same thing with my little one....we never miss any of his games.

Mr. D has coached all 3 boys in sports and I have managed all of their teams. We are extremely involved with their lives. Still to this day! We are a very very close family....the Fab Five! haha

I was the one that always planned ahead for things. I always made sure everything was taken care of, kids had jackets when we left the house. I could not live "where the day takes me". I couldn't be spontaneous. I worried about money. I took care of the homework with the kids. I disciplined them. I took care of the bills, called to get extensions, mad
e payment arrangements.

He was more of the wild one. He always had this attitude of  "wherever the day takes me". He was so carefree. He never worried about anything. He just lived! He worried about tomorrow when tomorrow came. But today he was going to live in the moment.

Sex was almost non existent in our relationship. I was not a big fan of sex! I know I know.....it's crazy to even think that. But sadly it's true. Mr. D would beg and beg to have sex. He was lucky if we did it twice a month!! And then when I would agree, half the time it would be a hand job. To me sex was like doing the dishes....a chore!

Everything came first except Mr. D and our marriage. Don't get me wrong, we got along great. We have always loved each other. We have always had a great relationship and have been best friends.

"I'm soooooo sorry Mr. D for treating you like that all those years. Thank you for hanging in there and not giving up on me."


Fast forward to the here and now........WOW What a difference a year makes!

Now it's Mr. D that is the responsible one. He takes care of everything. He takes care of the bills, makes sure homework gets done. (I help with doing the homework). He is always thinking of the boys. Not that he didn't before....but now he thinks like I did. He is always saying "what about the boys".

I'm more the wild one now. I live for today, not really worrying too much about tomorrow. I'm not completely like he was.....but I definitely don't worry like I used to. The whole "cone and my car" thing....he told me that I was acting like a teenager, because I was kind of driving a little to fast and "playing" with the truck. He sometimes says he thinks I'm going through a mid life crisis. We bought a Scion XB for me and I have a sound system in it, I want to get it lowered and fix it up. I would rather go out to dinner with him and buy pizza for the boys!

So while we were having lunch on our weekend get away the light bulb went off. I started to cry

"Why are you crying?"

"I just realized that we have reversed roles and I'm ok with it."

I told him that not only have we reversed roles, but I have "given it up". I have given up my fears and concerns......to him. I have let him lead me and guide me. I am comfortable with his decision making. I have finally let go and given all of myself to him.

I can't even begin to tell you how strong I felt sitting there across the table from him. I was crying, not only because of the realization I had but the deep emotional and spiritual connection I felt to him in that moment. Something changed. I felt different. I felt at peace. And I couldn't have loved him more in that moment.

 

I wonder if our friends and family have noticed the change in us? Have they noticed that I am constantly hanging on him? Have they noticed that I always want to be near him? Have they noticed that we no longer argue? Have they noticed that we seem to be so in love with each other? Have they noticed the respect we show each other? Have they noticed that I ask permission for things now?

I've become very selfish with him now. I don't want to share him with anyone. Friends. Family. Kids. Work. Nobody. I want him all to myself! When we went on our weekend get away we missed our little ones tournament. That was the first time EVER that we have missed our kids events.

I don't feel guilty. I felt bad because he had no one there cheering him on. But we talked to him on the phone several times. But I completely enjoyed our weekend together. And I really wanted to stay longer.

This lifestyle never ceases to amaze me. It is so powerful when things are working. It is so powerful when you have these realizations. and I keep saying that I didn't think I could love him anymore...but damn I just keep falling. I go back and read my earlier posts and I never thought we would be where we are. I know we still have a long way to go....but I definitely know there is a change in us.......and all because I'm givin it up!

Subrina <3

If I Didn't Have You

by Thompson Square

Sometimes it feels like, I'm gonna break
Sometimes this world, gives more than I can take
Sometimes, sunshine gets lost in the rain
And it keeps pouring down
It just keeps coming down.

This life would kill me If I didn't have you
I couldn't live without you baby
I wouldn't want to
If you didn't love me so much
I'd never make it through
'Cause this life would kill me
This life would kill me if I didn't have you.

You are my heart, every breath I breathe
I'm safe in your arms, you rescue me.
When I'm weak, you're strong
If you were gone I don't know where I'd be
You were made for me

 This life would kill me If I didn't have you
I couldn't live without you baby
I wouldn't want to
If you didn't love me so much
I'd never make it through
'Cause this life would kill me
This life would kill me if I didn't have you

If you didn't love me so much
 This Life would kill me If I didn't have you

Internal Conflict

Mr. D and I have been trying TTWD for about 8 months now. When we first started, and even up until about a month or so ago, we always said that we would never spank for punishment. When we would hear or read about couples spanking we both would agree that that just wasn't for us. We both agreed that we could never see us doing it. It would be too weird!

Fast forward to just a few days ago and I got my first spanking! If you haven't read my post about it you can here.

I have been having some issues since that first spanking the other day. I know it was the first one, and the first is probably the worst. It's the worst in that it's the first, so it's uncomfortable, strange, weird, foreign. For both of us. Here is my problem.......

 

I guess it really isn't up to me, that would be Mr. D's call. But I know if I said that I didn't want to do this Mr. D would be ok with it. But in all honesty, I want to do it. I want him to hold me accountable for things. If I don't comply then I want him to spank me.

Here's my issue or internal conflict.

I know we are consenting adults. We make our own decisions. We, as a married couple, have decided this is how we are going to live our marriage. We have talked about this issue at great length, we are both on the same page and we both agree on spanking.

Yet why is it that I feel like I am doing something wrong? Why do I feel the need to hide our real relationship? Why do I hope nobody finds out what we do? Why can't I share with friends how we live our life?

Is it because society tells us this isn't how it's supposed to be? Because my mom taught me that you never let a man tell you what to do, let alone spank you? This isn't how married couples are supposed to act? Spankings are for children that behave badly?

Does it really matter to anyone what Mr. D and I do behind closed doors and in the privacy of our own marriage? As long as we are not hurting each other or anyone else, what is it any business of anyone else's?

When I got that spanking I had such a deep feeling of connection with Mr. D. I can't really explain it, but I just felt so close to him and so at peace. Like there had been a weight lifted off of me. It was as if I had given everything to him. Don't get me wrong, the spanking hurt and I'm not looking forward to doing it again. It probably doesn't help that I'm a big baby when it comes to pain. But as soon as it was done and he laid down with me and we talked, it was so peaceful, I felt so peaceful.

So why the internal conflict? I want to share TTWD with everyone! I want everyone to know how great it felt to get that spanking and the release it gave me. But society has taught us that it's not normal. That spanking your wife should not be allowed.

Well you know what I say......

If what we do makes us both happy, we are not hurting each other or anyone else....then we are going to continue to do this. When we both have decided that we no longer want to do this, or we both feel that it's not working in our relationship, then we will stop. But we are definitely not going to stop because there are people out there with closed minds and think that this is wrong.

I think the world would be a better place if people would not judge others. Just because one couple lives a certain way or does things a certain way doesn't mean they are wrong. It just works for them. It's not my place to judge anyone on what they do behind closed doors or anything else for that matter.

Internal conflict over!


Subrina <3

A New Toy

We have quite a collection in our "toy box". Usually when we get a new toy we go together and pick it out. We will have an idea of what we want when we go, but we almost always pick it out together.

Yesterday I had to take a trip to San Diego for work. So I called Mr. D during my drive so we could talk. Not about anything specific, just to talk! I asked him what he was doing, he said he was going to the store. I asked him what he was getting and he said just picking up something.

hhhmmmm OK.....he's probably at the "toy" store.

I get home from work and we are cuddling on the bed. He starts kissing me and rubbing my back.

"I bought you something today"

"You did, what did you buy me"

"It's a surprise, I'll show you later tonight"

Since I think he went to the "toy" store and he bought me something.....I'm getting excited! I kind of have a feeling I know what it is. We have talked about them but I have always been a little apprehensive about getting one. And since we just tried to do it last weekend I ASSumed it was a buttplug. pun intended!

We went out to dinner with him mom. Came home had a few drinks after dinner. I was doing stuff on the computer. Finally the kids are asleep, or at least in their rooms. Mr. D comes in our room and sits next to me on the bed. He asks what I'm doing, I tell him reading blogs! HAHA you guys are never very far away!! I shared some of the things I was reading. I could tell he was getting antsy and like he had something to tell me. But I go on about my business.

He finally says I want to show you what I got you today. I told him I thought I knew what it was. He said, no you don't know. So I tell him to show me. He goes to the door and locks it. (yes we finally got a lock on our door!!) When the door is locked I know what's about to happen.

He gets the "toy box" out of the closet. Gets the key to unlock the lock and turns around and grins at me. He is holding my new toy!! I couldn't believe what I was looking at. I am beyond excited now for the door being locked, but a little nervous too.

This is my new toy and in my favorite color!!!!

 

 

I have heard about the "wand". I have heard how intense it can be. So now I am excited but nervous too. Am I going to be able to handle the intensity of it? Well, I guess I'm about to find out!! He tells me to get my cloths off and lay on the bed. I do what he says but the anxiety is taking over. I am giddy with excitement.

 

He starts playing with me, rubbing me all over, kissing me and telling me that he can't wait to use my new toy on me. He has that low throaty sexy growl when he talks to me. Gawd I love that sound. I especially love it when he's close to my ear. Oh Sweet Jesus!

 

And then I hear it.

 

BUZZZZZZZZ

 

He tells me it has 10 different speeds and he's going to use all of them.

 

OH. MY. GAWD.

 

He touched my clit with the wand and I almost jumped off the bed. I pushed his hands away. He smacked my ass and told me to keep my hands away. I was begging him to stop. It was so intense. I can't describe the feeling, but it was amazing. The "wand" along with his hands and his low sexy voice in my ear calling me his whore and slut. It was beyond anything I could handle. But that didn't stop him. I was crawling up the bed to get away from him but of course, he wasn't having it. He smacked my ass.

 

"Where are you going, get back over here"

 

whimpers

 

smack  "Don't move again"

 

"OH MY GAWD pleeeeeeeease"

 

I can't even think straight. He is relentless with that thing. He just keeps coming at me with it. And then he puts another toy in me. I don't know how much more I can take. I am a quivering mess. He moves the dildo slowly in...out...in....out and never letting up on my clit with the wand. He changes speeds and moves it around. I am beyond hot and completely lost.

 

Low, throaty, deep growl "That's a good lil whore....you can take it"

 

"Oh please Sir....pleeeeeease"

 

Low, throaty, deep growl "Please what? Please stop? Please harder? What do you want you lil slut"

 

I'm not sure what I want. I can't even process information. I can't form any kind of sentence except "please Sir" and "oh my gawd". I just know that what he's doing to me is beyond anything I have ever experienced.

 

He keeps up his relentless assault and I can't take it anymore. He knows I'm getting close and he pushes me. He does what he wants and takes what he wants.

 

Low, throaty, deep growl "Cum, I want you to cum you lil whore, give it up to me, give it all to me"

 

And that was my undoing. I completely lost it. That one little sentence can push me right over the edge, and he knows it. It was one of the hottest nights we've ever had.

 

Needless to say I love love love my new toy. If you don't have one of these little gems, you need to get one! Seriously.....it is beyond words!

 

Subrina <3

My Threesome Weekend Final

"Get your clothes off"

UGH I'm really not feeling it right now. I'm still mad and hurt and maybe a little embarrassed.

"I said get your clothes off"

Even though we don't spank (yet) or punish for behavior, he doesn't seem in the mood to test. He is still kind of mad at me and probably a little disappointed. So I do what he says.

I lay on the bed, again completely naked. He tells me to lay on my stomach and he heads for the "tool box". I feel we are struggling a little bit to make that connection but it seems like we are both fighting to get there.

He comes back over to the bed and rubs my ass and back. His touch is so soft. I feel him between my legs and my body is betraying me. I'm not feeling the moment. I'm mad. I'm hurt. I'm embarrassed. But my body is feeling everything. His hands are like silk on my skin. His hands fit perfect on me.

My mind has finally caught up to my body. He starts smacking my ass. Not real hard, maybe you could call them love taps. As he continues smacking my ass his hands land a little harder each time. Right cheek, left check, upper legs.....over and over.

And then he slides his finger in me. He fingers with a vengeance, like he is trying to crawl inside of me. I'm not sure why but instead of using the toys he went to go get he put his cock in me. I like the toys but I love the feeling of him.

This time as a little different. It was quick and kind of rough. He just took what he wanted and we we're done. He cuddled with me and we both fell asleep. I'm not sure if we we're both that tired or just from the argument, the amazing sex and all of the emotions that came with it.

The next day I had my surprised planned for him. I decided to take him to get a full body massage. I was a little nervous at how he would react so I told him about it before we went. He was all for it but said he would rather spend our money on something else. Ok that was fine with me. We really didn't need to go all the way to San Diego for a massage! I just wanted to spend time with him...I didn't care what we did or where we went.

So we went to Old Town and walked around, looked at the shops and had lunch. We had a really great conversation at lunch. We both really opened up about this lifestyle, what we both want out of it and where we are headed. He said that he is getting more comfortable in his role but still has a lot to learn. I agreed and felt the same way about myself.

The rest of the weekend was great. We just hung out with each other and just went where the day took us. We had no rhyme or reason for things we did or where we went. We we're just being with each other. I can't tell you how great it felt to just be with him. If you don't get away with your Sir/Master/HOH/HusDom.....you should! You should really make an effort to spend a couple of days just being with each other.

I realized that on Friday Mr. D was in full blown HOH mode. He was in control, demanding, commanding and hot as hell. The next few days not so much. He had his moments but nothing like Friday. Is this normal? Is it common for the HOH to switch? I know he's still learning his role but man do I wish Mr. D would stick around more!! HAHA He is smoking HOT!!

It is kind of strange how you spend every day with that person, you live with them, you share your lives with them, but spending a couple of days away from everyone and life.....it truly is amazing. I don't understand how I can keep falling in love with him more and more. I always feel like I already love him as much as I can.....and then something happens and I fall more in love with him.

Dammit!!! Why didn't we discover this lifestyle earlier in our relationship?? Oh well, we have found it now and I don't want to ever go back to the way we were.


Thank you Mr. D for an amazing weekend. I loved spending time with you and just being with you. You are absolutely the perfect person for me and I am so glad that you chose me to share your life with. I love you more and more every day.


Subrina <3

I Gotta Get This Out

I know most of you are waiting for Part 3 of my threesome weekend. I am working on it, but something just happened and I need to get this out. I need to write about it. I need to hear from you that have been there, that I am normal.

So if you follow my blog at all then you know I have a texting rule. I have to text Mr. D Mon-Thur at 11:30. I get 5-10 minutes leeway either side of 11:30. I am soooooo on this rule that I never falter. Since I don't miss this text there hasn't been any consequences if I don't text him. He did mention that if I didn't text him then he would take the computer away for the night.

He has mentioned a few times that he is really starting to consider spanking for punishment. I'm not sure how I feel about this. We have talked about it some, but not to the extent that we could actually start doing it.

Well guess what??

Ms. Never-misses-a-text missed a text!

When he called me at his lunch he asked me about it. I told him that I was driving (I drive for a living) and couldn't text him. He asked if that was the best excuse I could come up with. I said it wasn't an excuse, that's what really happened. He said OK then, we'll discuss then when we get home.

Yea ok, been there before and nothing has happened......but whatever! We'll see!

We get home from work and start getting undressed out of our work clothes.

"Come here and lay down with me"

"OK let me get undressed first"

"NO! I said come here and lay down with me.....NOW!"

OK what the hell is going on. He never does this, especially when we have just gotten home from work. But ok I will play along. I love cuddling with him anyways.

I lay down with him and ask him what this is all about. He's rubbing my ass. I ask him why he loves me today. He says I love you everyday. OK this is just weird.....what the hell is going on.

And then it happens!

He asks me about the text message today. He wants me to explain why I didn't text him. I told him again that I was driving.

"That's your excuse? That's not good enough. The rule is you are to text me at 11:30, give or take 5 mins. You didn't do that today"

He gets up off the bed and puts his hands behind his back and looks down at me. I'm laughing at him. I know I know...I shouldn't be laughing but I can't help it. This is really weird and awkward.

"Get over here and bend over the bed"

LOL is he kidding? We haven't even talked about this. He can't be serious.

"I said come here! Subrina....NOW!"

LOL "no, we're not doing this. We need to talk about it first."

"Subrina........I said come here NOW and put your ass in the air"

I just rolled over on my stomach and put my face in the pillow. He places one hand on my legs and

WHACK!

I LOL again....wiggle and tell him he can't do this. We have to talk about it first!

WHACK!

Again....I LOL and tell him he's crazy. He can't just spank me.

He lays down next to me and kisses me on my head. I am still laying down and we start talking. I told him I was mad at him. He didn't seemed phased by that and told me that I need to follow the rule. He understood that I am a driver and can't always send the text but I need to figure it out. He is just as calm as can be talking to me.

He tells me he kinda feels weird. He says "this" feels weird. I asked him what he meant and he said that this is new for us. We have never done this and it just feels strange, different, awkward. I agreed with him.

All of a sudden, while we were talking, I suddenly got this weird new feeling.

"Mr. D, I feel kinda weird right now"

 

A tear rolls down my cheek

"What do you mean you feel weird?"

Another tear "I don't know....I just feel.....uumm.......I feel at ease. I feel at peace" another tear falls

He gets a small grin on his face but looks a little confused. He wipes my tears and asks me why I'm crying, am I hurt or mad? If you're at peace then why are you crying?

They're not tears of sadness. They're not really happy tears. They are deep emotional tears. The kind of tears you cry after having an emotional sex scene. I feel like something suddenly has changed between Mr. D and I. I see him differently now. I see him more in an HOH role.

I think between this weekend and this first spanking he is finding his HOH role. He is becoming more comfortable and confident with it. I am giving up more control and he is taking over.

Even though this first spanking was awkward, strange, weird and foreign to us both....I really think it has changed something. I know it has for me. I know this will not be the last spanking I get. He did say that he kinda liked it. He did feel the same way I did but I think he felt powerful and in control while it was happening.

I know this little episode started out with me laughing at him, but I think it was more a nervous laugh. I am so proud of him for sticking to his guns and not backing down, no matter how hard I fought him, and I did put up a pretty good fight. Once the event was over I felt such a connection to him. It was even more weird than the actual spanking.

Subrina <3


My next post will be My Threesome Weekend Part 3....but I just had to get this out!